In a few days it would have been my dad and step moms anniversary.
I love her like a mom, we never use step in my family. I want to do something
for her, but I am at a loss as to what. This has been so hard on all of us, I don’t want to cause her more hurt, but I don’t know, I don’t want to just pretend this day hasn’t always been special either.

I feel so bad for her, she is the one who found him. She heard the shot and went outside. What I saw gives me nightmares, and I didn’t see all that she did. I brought her yellow roses on Dad’s birthday, she liked that, and brought one down to his grave. But, I don’t know.. I have never lost a husband to suicide and can’t begin to figure this out. Any ideas?