I'm holding on. I'm going to loose my hobby Radios equipment,my Home Theater,my collections of things,my car,and many valuable things that I have paid for over many years. I have put antennas up,and did special things with them,special ground rod configurations,and all of this will be lost. I have self defense hobby type stuff,all will be lost. Coin collections,all will be lost. (Had since I was a teen ager) I have other valuable things,and sentimental things that will be lost. I have radio scanners, special tactical equipment which I Love,special flashlights,night vision devises,and many,many other special things that will all be lost. Things that I really care about will be lost. I deeply regret what I'm hearing from the family. This is bitterly cruel,and not fair. I didn't think that I would be losing everything. It sounds like I am.

It sounds like I'm going into a place of poverty. This is cruel. I lived in a middle upper class suburban life when I was growing up. I cannot take my things with me into a place of poverty. I don't know where I'm headed. I'm going to miss my dear property. These things have helped me to distract my mind from my mind hurting me. I have top notch things that I most certainly don't want to part with. I'm just thinking about this now. I have many interests. I hate what is going on. It's cruel. It's not right. It's too wrong to happen. I didn't expect it.

These things are a part of my technologies,that I've kept up to date. This is all I have. I'm also into photography,and have telescopic lenses. I have DVD collection,CD collections,special radio equipment built in my car. I guess I'm going to have to part with everything,and a family that use to care about me. This is to much going down to quickly. I don't know how I'm going to handle it. This is a big triple wame. I don't have words to express what I'm going to lose. It's too much. BF