i feel bad posting about how i feel overwhelmed and that no one is here for me.

you all have been MAGNIFICENT and more. and i feel terrible saying its not enough, because most times it is, but i feel righ tnow i need a real warm hug or a real shoulder to cry on, one without strings or secret agendas.

i wish i had a penpal. that seems like it would be really beneficial for me, not only to relay all my thoughts, but to get an answer, are their penpal correspondent therapists? that would be awesome.

or even just someone random to build a relationship with (not a samaritan or someone random) i duno why im so picky im just trying to figure out whats best for me, and im fighting the battle alone.