I forgot to add. After the last times I was made worse from the ey meds I said no more. Then I did again because I was in bad pain but not like this hell. Now I am so angry with myself because I should of listened to my instinct. Now I feel I am being pushed into the catheter for my leg because of certain issues with my mom also I will not be able to tolerate the winter and can't move again and I feel angry at her because though she has done so much for me and wants the best for me if I have to suffer more I will blame her like I blame myself right now for the eyes.That is not right on one hand on another I don't know. She is my best friend too. I don't know anymore. Ok sorry now hugs and thank you