thanks, Carolina ...

I understand what you're saying ... and the odd thing is - there is no one close to me that has ever had to go thru this sorta thing ... I was at a loss and felt like I was in limbo ...

I did try to return to work (my old job) .. but, it was just too frustrating and stressful (was making me worse) .. and I felt like I wasn't making a difference ... and the drive was ridiculous .. and I wanted to move .. but, now I was in a financial bind ... and then receiving work disability ... while getting that, I applied for online classes to do something!

Lost my job because they said I didn't try - but I did .. and wouldn't help me find another position within the company .. they said that I would have to come back into the same position ... and that wasn't going to be good.

Starting the corp ... all on paper ... no shop or studio .. and the quilting has helped me keep the stress down .. and this was something I was pursuing before I was dx'd ... and just decided to really do it ... going slow ...

doesn't pay for me to have a lawyer ... still waiting now after the appointment on Tuesday and go from there ...

should I push myself and work out? I was trying to ... but couldn't find anything that would encourage me to 'stick with' ... and the stress of applying and interviewing was draining me ... sorry, if this sounds like whining.