I wanted to thank everyone for the advice on the spinal tap. Other than the fact that the radiologist couldn't seem to find the right needle size I did okay after three separate insertions (yeah.....NOT FUN!!!!) I got the results last Wednesday. I had all the typical markers (IgG, white cell count, O Bands) typical of MS. With the lesions that were discovered on my spinal cord, and my family history, I was not that surprised.

I went back to my hometown to spend some quality time with my family. My partner stayed back home to deal with some business issues. I really wish she were here.

I'm not quite sure how I should be reacting to this news. In typical fashion, my family and friends have been coping with me with humor. I feel like breaking down. Having witnessed first hand what MS can do to my mother and my deceased mother in law, I'm really really scared. I'm not sure how to express my fear. What happens if I say it aloud? I'm worried they'll all scatter to the wind.

~M~