Evonne you sound like such a kind person and such good advice. Also Jaye, you have such wisdom, all your answers show it. Jcitron I am sorry you are so unhappy. You may be depressed, I too suffer depression and know how it can drag you down but with treatment it does help alot. Also, I think you are so lucky to have the ability to play the piano and have the love of music. This practice on piano probably helps your hands tremendously even tho you do have bad days when they don't work right. Just keep playing and try not to dwell on your bad days. I hope you feel better soon.