I don't mean to sound like a old skipping record,but these things are getting worse. I feel the fight draining out of me. I don't feel like doing anything. All that I hear is negative. I don't even feal like moving around. I want to sleep.My feelings are all numb,except for the dread.

I have not felt like this in more then twenty years. I just wish my family understood. I wish that I heard something from SSD,because my money is going down. Social Services isn't helping me to much.

They must not really care to be truthful. It looks like I'm about to hit bottom. When that happens,I hope that someone helps me. I realize that our economy is bad right now,so I'm scared that SSD might reject me in the hearing,then what am I going to do? No ones telling me anything. I'm very scared. I do not wish this to sound like a drama. This is reality to me,and I'm tired,and scared,and cannot get it out of my head. BF