HI BP?
We haven't met and I apologize that I've come into this thread about "poison ivy" with the actual intention of talking to you about "bipolar".
First, a little bit about myself- I've known that I am bipolar for about 6 years - until that diagnosis - nothing made sense - now it all makes sense and I hope that what I am about to say will get you on the right path to accepting your diagnosis and having life, thus far, "make sense".
I first came to the internet when my youngest was diagnosed as having mild tourettes syndrome... a long path led me to learning more about myself and until I found the help I needed (through wonderful friendship and support, both online and in my outside life; finding the right medication and most importantly - finding the right therapist!), I attached a horrible stigma to depression - desperately trying to find a physical reason for my irrational behaviour and unhappiness.
Thankfully, my interaction here has helped immensely. I have read just about everything I can about bipolar and take what I can, chew it up, digest and spit out what doesn't work for me...
Google "bipolar" - and learn about how many people have this disorder - you'll find yourself amongst some pretty amazing company - most are very creative, artsy-fartsy type people.
this is just one example:
http://www.macleans.ca/culture/peopl..._127234_127234
and another from an ordinary woman like you and I:
http://www.bipolarhappens.com/?gclid...FSXLYAodO2Jazg
Here are the names of FAMOUS people who have come forward to the world to help better educate us about mental illness.
they, too, have bipolar!
http://www.geocities.com/coverbridge...epression.html
Hang in there... one day you will look back and thank yourself for fighting - its worth it.
(((hugs)))