Aww, sweety.....I'm sorry you're feelin' so down. Life can seem like a collision course for sure sometimes. Like it waits till you're down and it gets in one more jab.
You're due for a break that's for certain. You know you're in my prayers....and you know you can call me anytime day or night. I'm always here....might be in the bathroom but I'll call right back!!
I wish I had an easy answer for you. I remember feeling the exact same way you do right now. I couldn't see a light at the end of the road. There was one, of course, but it was hard to get there.