BJ!!! It is SO good to see you post. We worry about you here.

My goodness what you've been through! Dear sweetie, I know how frightening that is to have your heart race so badly. Not trying to hijack, just letting you know I sympathize because it is so scary. Happened to me when I was 27 and ended up in the hospital for over a month dying from my ulcerative colitis. Got down to 86 lbs and couldn't even hold water down. When they checked me in, they didn't think I would live through the night. Anyway, I was so dehydrated and so emaciated you could see my heart beating through my chest!!!!

I am so very sorry for the problems you've been going through with these treatments. I can only imagine it through your eyes and words. I guess that we can just pray the doctors know what they are doing. And, I don't know if it's right to suggest it here, but maybe there are groups of people on the internet who are going through what you've been through. Maybe reading their stories would help you understand, and you wouldn't feel alone in this battle with the treatments.

Oh, sweet Hooper. I wonder if you're at home with him now. He will be so very excited!

I am just so darned sorry for those headaches. UGH! They are debilitating. I hope they've given you something decent to help with those.

Much love to you sweetheart. Keep hanging on and jknow that you are very loved here!!!