(((( BMW )))) Thank You for understanding. Deep down I know I done the right thing for my kids even though it hurts me, I felt as a Mom I had to put what was right for them first to give them the best chance in life.

When they first went to foster folks I got to see them 5 or 6 days a week and talk to them on the phone for an hour a piece when I wasn't well enough for visits. The past year I have only seen them maybe twice and will maybe see them twice more.

Their Daddy passed away in the summer of 05 but the aftermath was horrendous. The autopsy took 3 weeks, the funeral a month, the ceremony for placing the ashes and plaque 4 months, the winding up of his affairs 4 months. At which point I had a breakdown and couldn't care for myself let alone 3 very special but severely traumarized boys with special needs.

And about my sons birthday...my social worker intervened and got me a 1 hour phone call with him.

Thank You SO much for taking the time to read and care.

Much peace and love to you,
roz
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