As far as Borderline Personality Disorder is concerned.....DBT has been proven as a much better therapy than hypnotherapy!

Something you might want to consider.

I see you are spending huge amounts of $$$ on hypnotherapy, and with borderline it's not showing to be as effective. Sometimes it makes your progress back-track. Borderline is due to something traumatic in early childhood(along with some type of genetic physical component, possibly). Whether it be physical abuse of some sort or just witnessing some traumatic episodes between your parents, etc.

What happens is that BPD's in stressful circumstances sometimes 'regress' emotionally to that 'child-like' place where things are black/white---I'm just simply stating to help you understand what you are up against.

Someone who specializes in DBT---will help you stop letting your emotions control you, so that you can function better with your life.

Don't beat yourself up over the other stuff. Just realize that after using for numerous years, things can occur in your body, that suddenly there is a toxic reaction. They call this Tardive Dyskinesia. This is something that can happen with any medication after sustained usage through the years. If you view mj as a med...then this is something to consider.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tardive_dyskinesia

Best of Luck with schooling!!!