I can relate to that. I use to get full blown panic attacks that where so bad that I would have to lie down on my bed. It was like a dark cloud would move over me when I was a teenager. These events frightened me out of my wits,and I would be incompasitated for a short time. They left for years,and then they came back,and then they left again.

Then I had these pains in my chest after they left. My doctors either don't know whats going on,or they keep silent about it. I'm going to see a new therapist within the next two weeks. I'm going to tell the therapist about these pains in my chest. The panic attacks are dormant,but the acute anxiety,and pain are still happening.

I get a tightness in my forehead,throat,and chest with a pain in my chest. The anxiety goes up,and down during the day. The pain comes,and goes according to how my anxiety level is.

Sometimes I have a strange feeling like I'm going to die,with a strange feeling in my chest. I think that's a mild panic attack. I don't have the full blown ones at this time.

I've had different anxiety manifestations that have frightened me out of my wits all my life.

I've told my doctors about these things,but I realize at this point in my life that they have never really known whats going on. Some sit there and act like they do. When they make a medicine mistake,I once again suffer the consequences.

I go in, and out of these upsetting worried states of mind. Sometimes I get depressed. Sometimes things last for months ,or years. Then I feel better after awhile. Then suddenly I'll take a nose dive out of the blue. Then my life is shaken up again.

I also have the OCD traits. I have them bad sometimes. These thoughts sort of explode in my head,and I cannot get these thoughts out of my head.

When people say things, they trigger some of my worse fears. They don't know what they have done to me. I think some people think it's a discipline situation. They don't know that I've just freaked out. They misinterpret whats happening in me.

People just don't understand whats going on,and sometimes they get angry. This causes rejection,and all kinds of pain. They have no clue that they are hurting,and damaging my life even more. Some people are sadistic,and they enjoy throwing me into a head trip. I never understood people like that. Some people have been very mean to me,knowing that I was somewhat fragile. Some people have been rude,and abrupt,and It's hurt me. They just cannot fathom whats going on. They think that I can just snap out of it. They have no clue what they are dealing with. I've been hurt deeply on top of all of this. BF