Abbie you post was simply beautiful and moved me greatly
I wonder, while I was away what could have possibly been so bad to cause
this emptiness here... our sanctuary... our place to heal, share and help
one another. I wonder about it, but I truly do not want to know. I am deeply saddened right now.
I wonder that I worked my butt off in rehab to get back HERE as fast as my
body would allow. Earlier I posted the lean on me song... I got all weepy and
couldn't finish the post. I can feel the emptiness here.... I don't understand
it, but I can feel it. I wanted to let you all know..... when I was down, and
thought surely I could not survive one more day in the pain I was in...
I came here.....
In desperation, I spilled out my heart to a room full of strangers. I was welcomed by you,
I was wrapped in the warmth of people who cared
and were not afraid to reach out to a stranger in need. For the first time
I found a place I felt safe to express what I was feeling, how deeply I
was hurting. You all understood, you knew my pain, and you did your level
best to try to help me.....
In my time of sorrow....
you all let me lean on you...
YOU were the friends...
that helped me carry on!!
I lost my dad.... a pain I still am not sure I can endure.
I am losing my husband. I lose a bit more of Lynn every day.
It is breaking my heart!
There is nothing I can do to bring my dad back....
There is nothing I can do to stop Lynn from leaving me....
But, I am not going to give up the love and caring friends I have
found here without a fight! ( a kind, loving one of course, full of hugs!)
I have come to care greatly for each and every one of you. Each of you
has had an impact on my life. There HAS to be something I can do,
we can do.... to get back what we had.. Surly there MUST be something??
Well, I am all teary eyed again... I miss you all very much.....
and hope ... well you know what I am hoping!!!!
