When I was sixteen I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder with a co-morbid diagnoses of borderline personality. I was treated with lithium and have succeeding in living a good life. Sure I had episodes here and there, but life was manageable. However it is re-surfacing now and I don't know what to do. I guess it seems that I am having mixed episodes because it's not extreme. My mania is not grandiose, I just have times where I feel like things are going well and I am truly okay. Moreso, I am having intense depression that includes crying spells, irritability, sadness, hopelessness, confusion. It is really starting to effect my life in a negative way and I don't know what to do anymore. I am 23 now, and have no health insurance. I have been exercising and trying to get enough sleep and eat but nothing seems to work. I don't know what to do.