There are so many of us here at NT...from all over the place around the world...
so many different cultures and so many different backgrounds...
yet, a lot of us somehow, ended up here...at this little forum called
SOS
most of us don't know what eachother look like....we only have names to go by....
so why is it, that a lot of us keep on coming back here????
why is it that when we see names that we are so used to seeing, we get so excited....
when I get to know someone well and I see their names, I have this feeling of peacefulness, it's as if I was coming home...
that avatar, that moniker chosen, no matter how silly it sounds, like
Alffe (reminds me of Mad magazine, LOL) or
Doody, makes me wanna say howdy
or
twinkletoes makes me think of all the toes jiggling or
DMACK, makes me want to do the *smack...
or
Addy, makes me want to take out my dusty abacus...LOL
Or
Spinach Moss, my dear wife who is stronger than popeye...
or
tammiloo that makes me want to visit the John where as
feelingoofy...I think about Goofy at Disney world getting felt up by Minnie Mouse. LOL
or
Nik-Key who keys the bathroom stalls with her name, "NIK" LOLOL
or
BMW, which conjures up an image of a gigantic marshmellow driving 90mph on the highway....
or
Koala77 making me want to sing 77 koalas sitting on the wall...
barbo makes me think of Barbara manatee
and
bizi reminds me I need to get busy...LOL
curious makes me ask more questions and
abasaki makes me hungry for sushi and california rolls with warm sake...LOL
ducky makes me wanna go play in the tub with my bath toys (should I admit that in the open? LOL) while Chemar[/b] makes me wanna impersonate administrators.
wren makes me want to fly with her and
Av8rgirl makes me want to just be the passenger...
snoozie makes me want to hit that button again so I can slumber while
MeBP reminds me of how high the gas prices are...LOL
shelley makes me think of princess toadstool and mario while
scrabble makes me want to break out the board games...
coolangel makes me think of devil's cake while
DM makes me wanna avoid dust or DUSTING...LOL
and then there are others that may not post as often but had made a couple of appearances yet just as important cause I've been on the receiving end of their kindness and friendship:
Bannet, Wiz, jprinze, Gauze Pad (Gazelle), Becky21 , herekitty, nae nae, SandyC(who makes me sing Oh Sandy...
),
kalamity_jane makes me wanna go rob a piggy bank..LOL,
aarcyn makes me think of arsenic...LOL
moosesaurus makes me think of a moose the size of T-REX giving out BEAR HUGS...LOL
weezgot5bitz's input is always fun to read
soxmom makes me think about wanting hotdogs and burgers
;
taffy who reminds me "now and later" and
tkrik makes me realize that I am not alone in my weird thoughts.
brokenfriend who isn't truly broken...
then there are the ones that we have truly missed but have came back to visited recently,
Kellwants answers, and
mistiis who's back with us from another forum, far far away...
jadedtonight, we miss the new updates of that baby girl!
and then there are some that we hope will post with us more:
clownie, caliTJ, and hopefully
hippiechick will keep on posting with us...
I know I will have missed names, please please do NOT be offended...it is only cause I am old and my memory suck eggs...
and of course there are those that are behind the scenes, perhaps too shy to post but are there praying and thinking positive thoughts in silence, you are truly and greatly deeply appreciated...once in awhile I see "you" thanking somebody's post and it makes me smile....
what I was trying to convey in this post is that how can this forum, just a few colors and a few smileys and on cyber ink, conjure so much warmth when I come visit??
How can this place, that is flat on my puter screen with simple words like "reply" and "new thread" can make me so excited and can't wait to tell somebody how my day went or how sad I was?
why are the these black letters, the names that I associate each person with, why do they just bring me such warm fuzzies???
what binds and bound us together??
What brought us together?
who knows, I am sure it was something divine and/or cosmic and we are all here for some reason...suicide related or not, we've found this place and we are talking and yakking away as if we've know each other for ages...
Why??maybe sometimes, it is JUST because...
and MY because includes all the things positive that I can think of such as love and care and tranquility as well as anger and sadness and suicidal thoughts
but all these balance each other out as I come here, and I read YOUR words or even just FEEL your presence...and it makes my day brighter if it was dark, BRIGHTER if it was already bright...
I feel your pain as well as your laughter and I want to share all that with you...YOU...
And I just wanted to thank you...THANK YOU...
(((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))
PS, well, originally, it was just ONE thought for the day and of course, I ended up hide yakking my own thread and it went to thoughts....I wonder if my mind will ever stop doing that? *sigh...
well, off I go to see the PDOC, I think he'll tell me how crazy I am...