I feel like the moon that I see in the sky tonight. It is so full and it is trying to shine so big and bright but the dark thick clouds fall over it before it can be. It gets wrapped in clouds and hidden. So that all I can see is a faint hint of its true big full bright lovely moon self.
I am tired of being degraded and put down. I am tired of walking on eggshells. I am tired of being ridiculed so that what ever I do is never the right thing. And everything I do is always wrong. I am afraid to do anything because I do not want to be put down or made fun of. I don’t have much confidence in my self or anything I do any more. I want to cry but if I cry I know I will hear look at you you’re a grown adult crying like a baby. I don’t even feel like part of my family anymore. I just have been put down and my emotions have been stretched way way to far. And the other person doesn’t even seem to care they seem much happier and content when they make me feel this way and I am like w.t.f. This isn’t who I married I don’t do this to you. I don’t understand life sometimes. I guess it is just like the moon maybe that gets full and tries to shine even if the clouds try to choke it in darkness. Sometimes a tiny little silver beam escapes bouncing off the thick clouds .
and that tiny little silver shard of light is what i am hanging on to. thank you all for being my tiny shard of light!!!!