it is times like this when i am alone that i feel so weak. when the things that were said,yelled at me the night before run threw me and echo around .and i have bad thoughts and i am so afraid to share this but i fought so hard yesterday to not self injury. i feel so bad ...that i feel like i deserve it. that i deserve to burn myself or cut. but then i thought of how i will look today when i am applying for jobs and job hunting and how it will ruin my plan .so i fought and mannaged to not do anything. it is hard to keep going when it seems the clouds smother every step you take and ya feel so alone . I am a suvivor too a fighter.

Abbie you know somethings about me NO one else knows here that slipped out sorta and please do not think i am now what i was at one time long ago. . I have come sooo far from that!!! i dont want you to think i am that person. okay abbie???????????????????

PEACE
BMW