mallow haid...

keep your hands off the keyboard for a sec...

now, count to 20 very slowly...you can do it...

while you are counting, breath slowly and let each number follow the rhythm of your breathing...

try to focus on the following sentence and nothing else while you do that. Ready??

WE LOVE YOU

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OK

now...

it's OK to think SI thoughts, SIers have that just like Suicidal thoughts...it's a PART of us...

the trick is to try to NOT act on it...

forget about the world for a sec...focus on yourself, think about who you are...think about the supports you've been given. You are a GOOD person...

keep thinking that...let that thought transcends to the positives...

everytime a negative hurtful thought pops up, don't worry about it too much (I learned that yesterday, the more we fight it, the worse it gets, it is how we manage it when we think about it that counts. )

let that negative ride for a little bit and sit on your hands while you ride it out...

and as soon as it subsides and start to slow down, read something wonderful here that's written about you...and focus on that and BELIEVE...

you can do it, we all have faith in you...

(((BIG HUGS)))