I have CP along with advancing parkinson's disease. I want so desparately to be "well" and "understood", but instead have lost my job , my friends, and soon my wife. All but one of my 3 kids don't "hate and despise me". And in exchange for this, I still love all of them deeply, give them all my money, and hope that they will be blessed with a chronic disease free life, so that they may NEVER have to suffer in isolation and silence.