i am sending you hugs. It is awful to be lonely and because we are bipolar it just gets intensified. You are such a good person I think one of your goals is to cherish yourself! If you cherish yourself, you will send out vibrations to others and attract really somebody special to share things with.
Once you feel better, maybe there is some group you can join where the people are kind and giving like you and maybe you will find someone.
I am under a lot of stress too but I can hardly leave my apartment. Don't fall into that trap!
Bobby