Again thanks for your support. I have an art therapy class this afternoon but my hands shake so much from the meds that I am taking I find it a little depressing and frustrating trying to do any work, especially as I was once quite a good artist.

So I am back on the laptop and surfing away, had a little manic shopping therapy spend today - they let me go out unescorted which is pretty cool but now I am back and facing the weekend in here on my own pretty much until Monday. I might go for a walk to the park nearby if I can muster the energy and motivation to. I don't like walking or being on my own so much and then there are times when I just want to be on my own full stop, almost contrary in my way of thinking.

There was an awful incident last night which involved one of the patients who had just been admitted slashing his wrists and throat with a knife, the place was crawling with paramedics and police until the early hours. The paramedics did a fantastic job working in the rain outside on him for 45mins to stabilize him before taking him to hospital. Thankfully he is ok I have since found out. It didn't do much for me though and I ended up throwing up in some sort of shock I think an hour later!