Mari
I am so sorry you are not feeling well. Are you going through a cycle? Can you tell? I don't have hangovers from klonopin. I am only supposed to take two m a day but sometimes I take four. Last night I took two extra but still couldn't sleep. My mind just wouldn't shut down.
Do you have dreams? Do you have recurrent dreams? You always seem to be burdened by your family and left in a helpless situation. I remember your writing that you started taking care of them when you were seventeen months old. You also wrote that you got a lot from your students but you are in a way also taking care of them. Your caretaking seems still seems to be an overwhelming part of your life. I wonder if that has anything to do with your sleep "phobia" at night. Is it your private time or do you feel you have to be on alert?
just rambling
Bobby