I lost my Mother last year. Please don't blame yourself. I know how deeply a person can feel alone. I know the grief of a sudden death. I understand the void that is felt. I know the other feelings involved. We are hear,and you aren't alone. Let the false guilt go. The MS is genetic,and you did not chose it,and it's not your fault,and it's not fair. Let rest,and peace fill your heart,and bless your heart. Brokenfriend