Sounds to me like you need that break. You've earned it!

My circumstances were very different from yours, but I remember back when friends would ask about my absent teen, I'd just have to shrug. She'd call home about every 6 weeks or so.

I remember thinking, "Out of sight, out of mind." And it was true.

She made some really poor choices for several years, but (thankfully) finally found her way back home.

We are such good friends now. I enjoy her and her cute family so much.

I feel it was expressions of love that made the difference. Even when she was breaking my heart, I'd tell her I loved her.

My Mom used to like to quote to me, "This too will pass." She was right.

Just keep doing your best (like you've been doing) and believe that everything will work out eventually. Prayers definitely help. Sending some your way.