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I am so sad you are hurting so

what I dont understand tho is why, especially if your husband was willing to try, you did not go to the pastor for at least an attempt at working something out?

I know I am just an outsider with absolutely no insight into your life, but it puzzles me that you dont seem to even want to try to salvage the marriage. Is it that you have decided there is no hope?

please forgive me being forthright, but I am going to just say again that with God ALL things are possible and there is ALWAYS hope if we hand things fully to Him

I really hope you will consider the mediation one more time. A saved marriage can sometimes turn into something so precious