Hi Ryan:
I sense by the use of your verbage, that something that might help you is a sense of deep purpose and in turn this would give your life not only meaning but would help you to feel unique in an otherwise dull world.

Have you made a list of your priorities? Does anything stand out in your mind? Does anything make you smile just to think about it? Sometimes these things don't come to us immediately or even naturally. WE have to experiment trial and error to find our path. For example, try different hobbies on for size.

One thing that really helped me during times of questioning like you are doing is reading self help books on self esteem, resiliance, cognitive behavioral therapy, etc.

A really good book to read is "Man's Search for Meaning."

Wishing you well.