Brokenfriend,

it is excelent that you tried it.Some people wouldnt do even that. Your subconcious mind never sleeps , it responds all the time and we are not aware of that process. More aware we are, better.

Reading some books about experience and skills of other people is like opening new space before you. Theese two or three books will bring to you more information in short time.After pasting in google " rapid recall spiritual approach ", first result is book in pdf format. Great book about establishing neural pathways and great work of one man, too. " Anchoring " in google gives third result "nlp anchoring" . There is book titled "Mind mastery" on download page of the site. Crucial chapters are about anchoring , swish pattern and changing beliefs. My suggestion is to mark pages (or copy text) that are most interesting to you and to read it frequently.

Also , take care of your eyes. Reducing monitor contrast and brightness , changing background colour in pdf reader are protection of radiating white. Monitor frequency must be at 75mhz minimum.

Thoughts produce positive feelings in your body. Every morning think about something that makes you feel pleasure in your body. That is a skill that will come to you through the time. During the day I swim 200m without getting wet because I do it in my mind. Touch of water and movements that I make are massage for my brain. Beating anxiety is primarily physical process of wrestling with pain in your body. You have to be aware of it and fight with it until it disapeares. Not in a day but you will be surprised how fast.

See you soon.