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Originally Posted by Nik-key
I just hung up with my doctor and he wants to meet me there.
I am in such a horrible horrible place.
Lord but I am a mess! I can't stop sobbing.. wth!! I love my family,
I love Lynn.. but I want this frigging pain to STOP!!
My sister will be coming home on Saturday I have to try to pull myself together!
I WONT do to them, what my Dad did to me. Intentional or
not - it bloody well hurts! Worse than anything I can imagine.
That bug in a cup...that is me right now. I wont be on for a bit.. but DO know I will be ok. I know I am not ok now- but I am reaching out, and admitting it is more than I can take. I trust my doctor. Thank you all for
being here, you have been a source of strength for me... and you just
mean so much to me  |
You did the right thing in calling your doctor dear Nikki...
I'm sure he'll give you something to help get you thru this nightmare..
in fact I'm suprised you haven't been taking something since it happened.
What jumped out at me from your post is your saying you "have to pull yourself together"...you don't have to do that...you probably would be incapable of doing that..you are fragmented right now!
Dealing with the suicide of your beloved dad so recently, taking care of Lynn...helping with your sisters kids....Too much!!! You cannot be all things to all people right now.
You're wonderful but you need to take care of yourself.