I'm home The very first thing I did was come here to let you
all know I am ok. I know how it feels to worry about someone
and didn't want to do that to you all Your replies, well..
they just mean the world to me. I am going to copy them and
put them in the book my Angel friend gave me

I am a bit surprised, but come to find out .. all the doctors said
I was "normal" Go figure. I was told by the shrink, with all
I am going through between my Dad, losing Lynn inch by inch
my own physical pain etc etc I am right where they would expect
me to be. They truly are not overly concerned with me.

You know Alffe I should have just come to your house for a cup
of coffee and chatted with you! This is pretty much what I was told.
I am my worse stressor at the moment. Trying to push myself
to "get over it" .. trying to be everything to everyone... and not taking
medication due to my ridiculous stubborn pride. Fragmented.. such a
perfect word.

I was given shots for my physical pain to get it down to a low roar.
I was also given 3 medications to start. One for anxiety one for depression
and one to help me sleep. They stressed the key was to help me manage
the pain, not try to block it. Now, it is up to me to swallow that pride and
admit it is ok to need some help.

Thank you all for being here for me I STILL think it should not
still hurt this badly.... but as I told my doctor, I can't imagine how I
could have made it thus far without all of you. Much love