I totally understand what you are saying.

I seem to have such a small group that I can depend on. I make friends,
but something always seems to come between us. So I seem to have quit
trying.

I make lots more friends online, when I don't have to worry about meeting,
greeting and for some reason they liking someone else better.

I also have a situation were I feel like I'm single lots of the time. But that
is probably something that I just need to learn to understand.

I've been married for 26+ years. And I really wanted a soulmate more
than I got.

Life is so weird. I believe I married someone very much like my dad.

Donna