Hi Almondface and welcome,

I was abused as a child and was in a very violent situation - I shut out all those memories and recently they started coming back - it can feel like you are experiencing the same thing over again - what I tell myself then is that I survived it in the past and I can survive it now because it's not happeneing now - if I wake up in the night I have to turn the light on and sometimes I will get up and watch tv or read or just lay there reminding myself that I am ok and that the persons in the dream are not there now.

You say you are living with the person who abused you? does your family know about this? Is there another family member you can stay with? As to trust - it took me a long time and a lot of work before I could let anyone back in to my world - my psychologist has helped me with this and I hope yours can help you - you deserve to have a happy life and I hope things improve for your soon. Phoenix7