Hi pheonix7,

I feel that sometimes, I also hold regrets about who I am now. I used to think, I would have been so much happier if I didn't have PTSD, or if my suppressed memories just continued to be suppressed. But now, I just learnt to let go of things. I've learnt that negative thoughts doesn't help in my recovery so I try to counter them with thought-challenging thoughts. (part of my CBT therapy)

Whereas on days that you're feeling down, just let it be. After a while, it will just go away. Because suppressing emotions doesn't help for me, I'll just release it, either by talking to my psychologist or writing in my diary.

Anyway, just remember that you are not alone!! You can always discuss your problems here to let go of the baggage. I think that this belief is good enough to help you, because knowing that someone is there for you, is comforting and relieving for someone suffering in pain.

Take care.