Mari,
I am so sorry and can relate to something you said. About the friends that posted the nice things about your cousin. He touched their lives. I know forst hand how much these post help, maybe not heal so much as help.
I have the online guest book for my daughter still posted and I still find great comfort reading the supportive comments.

One day when I can handle having it in 3-D I will have it printed, memorialized forever.
I had a bad day missing De yesterday when I ran across a smiling picture of her in old mail I sorted.
So I stayed up crying, woke emotional, but I could not hold it in. I guess we need to let the grief flow out instead of letting eat us up inside.

I say a prayer for your family, and perhaps because of our connection, maybe our loved ones have met and watch over us together.
Di