I haven't been back to the grief counselor yet. I couldn't stand to hear the words to get over it because I can't just shut it off. I miss my parents and my brother more than anything. I just have this empty feeling in my heart. The few hours I've slept I've been having nightmare after nightmare, seeing my brother, reliving things that have happened. I told my pdoc I'm ready for the EMDR and will see the EMDR tdoc on Monday. If I have a psychotic breakdown, it's better than living like this.