Oh, Alffe...I feel for you, friend.

Forever really can seem impossibly hard, especially during those times when a single bad day feels like it will never end.

I had a sister who died very suddenly when she was twelve, and I was thirteen. Her heart burst during PE class at school, from a defect that none of us ever knew she had. You're right...for a whole year I kept expecting to see her every morning. In my dreams she was still alive, so in a way each morning was a refresher course in pain.

I'm very sorry about your son. I'm very glad that you've had such support from those around you. You are a very admired person, you know. All the best to you and yours...

Idealist