I know what you mean. I will be in the same boat as soon as I start medication up again. I am sorry you have this happen. Do not ever resort to illegal drugs lol That is not going to make things better that is for sure. I have watch some friends do pot. And they feel terrible afterward. They also feel paranoid. I have never done an illegal drug in my life because I am afraid of them! hahaah Aren't I a panzy? LOL But take care. I wonder if this pain has do with an environment?

I wish I can fix and help people. just poof

all better