Good morning and welcome to the forum. I don't know your life's circumstances or what has lead you to twice attempt to end your life...what ever it is that is causing you such pain, please know that we have all felt that way at different times in our lives. I'm so glad you failed in your attempts.

I don't view attempts as either cowardly or brave...I think we are just desperate to end the pain we are feeling and our minds suggest that death is one way to get out of that pain.

Our only son killed himself for reasons only he knew. I now feel that it was an impulsive act...and coming to that conclusion allows me to continue living my life. His choice to kill himself affected so many people who loved him...his family, his fiance', his coworkers, his young son...all of our lives were forever changed. It's something no ones considers when they are in those desperate thoughts.

Please know that we care about what you are feeling and please, pull up a chair and talk to us. (((therealme)))