Tony I am sorry about all your struggles. I can really relate to your anger. I have went to where I vented to now just anger almost. So lost. Anyhow on the med issue like Neurontin and those similar drugs now I am not an expert like many here but from observation and of course there are exceptions but it seems these meds alone don't cut it for most of us. I am not saying to or not to take these meds cause I have no clue. Just a thoughts I guess. Many thoughts