thanks all..
oh i am not at all ashamed to go to an AA meeting.. i guess i just want to try and beat it on my own.. but from the sound of it ... it is a pretty rough thing to try and do..
my real issue is that the AA meetings in my neck of the woods are in a not so nice part of town.. but meh ill get over it...
i have lots of support from my wife and i wonder if they would allow her to come with me? even though she doesn't have a problem...
honestly talking to my DR. is a little bit of a problem for me because i am on xanax daily for anxiety/OCD and i have this fear they will take it away from me if i let them know i have a drinking problem.. ugghhh... why did i ever do this to myself..

yeah i really should talk to my Neuro though about the drinking and MS.. i really do not want to throw myself into a flare or worse..
ill keep everyone updated on my walk through getting sober.. i really have a good feeling about it.. and i know with support i can beat this..