I can let go of the need to explain it to the rest of the world (though it's pretty deeply imbedded in my personality).

The hardest part (given that previously mentioned personality) is trying to figure it out myself, because I HAVE TO figure things out, predict and plan around things, analyze things right to death.

If I have a bad day, I have to figure out what I did wrong (possibly nothing). If I have a good day, I wonder: What's the catch?

Where's that head-banging thingy, Frank??