Resqgirl, it's really great hearing from you again... I can empathize with that up and down emotional roller-coaster you describe, and I'm sorry it's had such a strong hold on you for so long. I too am going through a situation where I shall have to move out of my home and find a new place to stay. It only adds a ton of stress to an already fragile situation.

I wish you the very best in sorting things out and finding some level ground.

Idealist