Alffie, I've been taking it all with a MASSIVE grain of salt, because she's so miserable, and forlorn, I've tried to assume she's just lost in that hideous stage of grieving and denial, and is just blind to how her actions are affecting us.

and she's always sorry... sorry she left the gate open, sorry she forgot to close the window, and it rained on my futon, sorry she didn't know I wanted more coffee, etc etc etc.

plus, she's really really smart, widely read, and a world-traveler, now working on a guidebook, and before that, was a photojournalist in warzones like Bosnia and Sarajevo, and Guatemala, so, she's tough, strong, witty, wild, and wonderful.

but right NOW, she's in an emotional toilet, and I don't know how to get her OUT of it, and it seems like she's irritating me much more than bringing pleasure (stimulating conversation, politics, archaeology, feminism, art, architecture, and photography) there's hardly anything she can't discuss intelligently, and skillfully,...

so yeah, she IS my friend, but right about now, that friendship's in serious jeopardy.



what if I toss her out, and she goes and does something horrible?



so you see my dilemma?