thank you Mari. that was a good incentive. I do feel physically better but the psychological addiction is still there. I tell myself that if i start again I will feel ph6ysically worse again. I still have an unopened pack in my apartment. I wish i could look at it as poison because I think it is poison, poisoning my system.
my fears when I wake might be related to depression. My friend said that since the prozac helps, maybe I do not have enough prozac in my system and need to tell the dr to up the medication. I don't know if he will do it. I see him on the 18th.
I finally was able to read some yesterday. I don't know what is going to happen once the elections are over. I put so much energy watching the news about it. So much is repetition. Obama makes me optimistic.
I had a nice time again with Kent on Friday. He is so sweet and bright. He usually brings me flowers and always wine. We order chinese food. I usually don't feel bipolar or worry when he is over.
I worry so much of the time.
Bobby