I called my PCP this morning, left message with her and her assistant, about the MRI, the Pain place where I had the consult with the PA, and how he sent her his recommendations about having the lumbar injections and referring me to a neurosurgeon, because of no disc in L-5, well because they took it out in 1989. But now the space is very narrow, no shock aborsber and bone spurs and etc etc etc

Which now is as he said TOAST.

So many things I want to do, but my lower back in stopping me dead in my tracks. Driving my anxiety to a very high level. I am cranky too, but I can't help it. I need to know what is going to happen, what I am up against.

I have so much else on my mind, my mom I am in some stage of grieving or am I in denial, I don't know, my dogs, still stuff to unpack and rearrange in the spare room.

AT least my MIAMI DOLPHINS won yesterday. The weather is in the low 80's high 70;s now, just perfect!

Haven't been out of the in 2 wks or so, only to go to see the Pain Mgmt PA, pick up MRI, nothing fun.

Then the holidays come into my mind, I walk in Walgreens to pick up a prescription and OMG I say how the hell am I going to deal with this, I have no clue.

Ok, I vented enough......thanks for listening......Nikko