thank you Bizi
I think I did have a break through but i haven't incorporated it yet. Kent's son has a mental illness. When he gets depressed he becomes psychotic. The other day I felt so much compassion for Chris. Then I realized I have a mental illness. I guess I still haven't accepted it. I realized I should feel compassion for myself. I don't hold high standards for Chris but rather just hope he gets relief from his illness. I don't expect things from him in his actions. He is handicapped. Then I realized again how still I put so much pressure on myself and am so self critical. I think I should be doing things that are really out of my control. I should be comforting myself and just do what i am capable of doing without putting stress or judgment on myself.
I have to work on this. I have to work on compassion for myself and I guess we all on this forum have to take the leap and start feeling compassion for ourselves rather than making the situation worse.
How can you feel mentally ill when your mind works?
Bobby