I absolutely HATE to cry. I had been raised that crying was a weakness and to survive in this world you don't show weakness....."only the strong survive" was something that I heard often as a kid.

Due to other reasons I learned to control any tears I felt coming on but would cry when it was "Safe." I had "walls" that had been built over years starting very early, they crumbled in Dec. 2003 when PTSD entered my life.

I still feel crying is a weakness but, unfortunately, the tears come and I no longer have "control" so I go with my feelings and let the tears flow hoping someday they will end. For me the tears are just a short lived release that will, at some point, need to be released again. Yet, never feeling like the reason for the tears will ever be resolved, just an on going cycle.