I am such a failure. Why do I keep failing at everything I do? I try my best to finish everything but it's so hard to finish this one task that I have my mind set on. I keep crying and I keep telling myself that I can succeed when really I can't. I am only fooling myself. I am going to end up failing school this semester and I really don't want to but it's happening. I can't help it. I have been so sick this semester and I have been so down that it's not funny.

I hate this time of the year. I hate November period. It's always so hard on me and with my therapist not wanting to help me makes me feel even more like a failure than before. I wish that I could just find a way to disappear. I wish that I could fly away and never come back. I hate feeling this way. I wish I knew what to do.

Wishful