Well, the three trazedones ( 150mg ) finally did wear off. So I hesitantly took four last night, which is the maximum. I talked to my dr this morning and told her last time this happened, taking four will probably stop working right around the time I go to see her again. I told her I was scared and aprehensive because last time, during the summer when my kids were with me, she put me on things Ive never heard of before and they created the seizures, which to this day my daughter is still traumatized about and keeps telling me she does not want me to die. I think it was tougher on her than on me. So you can see why Im scared to try something new. I know I should be open to it and realize this new medicine will do the trick, but I went through hell this past summer and I don't want to go there again. But at least the four trazedones, in conjunction with the 10mg of klonopin, and remeron are working for the time being. I just absolutely hate this. No matter how I try to stay and think positive, because I have great faith in my dr, I keep thinking "what if.....Im just not hopeful at this point.